Monday, July 25, 2005
+ UnBelieveable +
I'm bored... I am actually counting down the time for me to go home...
Think this is the 1st time I am doing this since I start work here...
so much to do the past few days... now nothing much to do... maybe I left something out??
Maybe I forgot to do something?? Hope not! =P
Me had a good weekend rotting away... had a real good rest... =)
But late last week... I suddenly find life meaningless... dunno wat I am working for...
suddenly I become aimless...
Since I started school, my aim was juz to be happy and do well for my exams in order to go to the higher levels... I was interested in doing that and so is very very motivated to do that...
Now?? Well, the aim to go higher shld still be similar, but the motivation is just not there... I really am not interested in fighting to be the best... I juz want to live peacefully and then wat?? Die off...?? hmm.....
My life is not going to be so simple... there must be more to just working and sleeping and spending the money that I earn.... But wat izzit that is missing?? I just cannot find out....Maybe I need to find an aim that I have to work for... work really hard and use my brains... well this job now that I have require me to use my brains... but not in the way I am interested to I guess... Maybe that's why I still feel something missing??
Well this is one good job.. easy w rather gd pay, bz most of the time.... but i just end up feeling lost n not knowing wat I am doing all these for... no sense of achievement, or when there is, it's shortlived n I dun really get happiness from that kind of sense of achievement... I need to do more than wat I am doing now... need more hobbies.... hmm....
Maybe really shld try to join some ECA....
One more hr to knock off.....
Vitamint_D @ 4:23 PM
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